Can I share something with you?
I don't always embrace change.
I know, I know. I should. I mean, there are memes dedicated to jumping blissfully off the cliff into the adventure of living circulating on every social media site at least seventeen thousand times a day. There are board-breaking success camps and motivational courses dedicated to helping people transform their lives. Many of my friends have titles like transformation artist and change agent and personal success coach. That's what I do for a living too -- catalyze change.
Really, there's no excuse for me not to emerge easily and willingly from cocoon. Period.
No excuse and still I'm prone to digging my heels in the sand and I think we can agree that no matter how cute the heel, it's much less sexy when it's clawing its way into earth.
Here's something else you might not know about me. Or maybe you do, you're awfully psychic after all. I love to sleep in my car. Yup. I'd rather, when the weather allows, drive to a lake, park, and expand into water molecules and quiet, gentle breeze as I sleep than slumber at home.
In fact, I woke at dawn just this morning snuggled in fur blankets and gazing up at the moon, which hung like a lantern over the great Rocky Mountains. Late last night I nudged my car into a grove of trees who promised to take care of me and after admiring a solitary Blue Heron that was gliding swiftly across the blueing sky I thanked the trees and the stream they drank from for hosting me through the night. Grateful for the planet's willingness to receive me and nurture me, I cranked the car on and got rolling into today.
Driving back into the city I could feel everyone's worlds: their problems, their worries, their sadnesses, their anger -- mostly I could feel their limitations and numbness. My body and being still buzzing and expanding, the smallness so many people live with hit me in a different way than it usually does.
I asked myself how expanded I truly am. Got curious about how big my world has gotten over the last few months and stepped into a sense of the me I'd been pretending not to be. I could see how much I've been trying to fit into a world I've outgrown. Tapping in and expanding, awareness of things I can be doing and places I can be going, both internally and in the world, started to shimmer.
The thing about edges and embracing change is that usually I avoid it because I'll emerge greater than I've decided I can. Like, my life will actually be better than it was before. Rarely do I sidestep change because the possibilities will become lesser or diminish. Actually, it's the opposite. When I resist changing, endless possibilities begin to extinguish.
If this sounds familiar to you here are some questions you could play around with (and by the way, asking questions is about opening doors and inviting All-Of-Consciousness to support you, it's not about having answers):
Oh, and this post wasn't just inspired by nature, I discovered this video "What does it mean to be you?" from Dr. Dain Heer and it made me smile and giggle and remember to have some damn fun with all of this. Check it out!
Lit and Comp teacher gone rogue, disguised now as a Living and Relationship Coach, Body Worker, and Access Consciousness Facilitator, I still sneak off to write because, well, it makes me come alive and it's one of the joyful ways I create the future.