How many of you truly fit in?
Or, like me, do you usually do things the wrong way? I've always been a bit backwards. I got pregnant, then married. Left my husband before I knew where I'd actually go. Had kids, then went to college. Played with channeling and mediumship before I learned how to "ground" my energy. Quit my career before I knew what I'd do next.
I always seem to go before I know how it's all gonna work out. Most people try to get it all figured out before they leap and I've been judged endlessly for jumping without a net.
But guess what I'm finding... this thing I do, is actually a TALENT that I'm choosing to EMBRACE and EXPAND.
This is super different than the way I've spent most of my life. I was always trying to pretend to do things the right way, always hiding my backwards-ass nature from the world. I spent way too long making myself feel really terrible about me.
I hope you're not doing that with something about you that might be a talent in disguise!
The last year has been an incredible adventure of unearthing the things that are special about me which I had buried so deep that no one could get them, including me. I'm acknowledging more and more that I don't actually need to be like everyone else and this difference is a true TREASURE. I've never needed to run with the pack. I can't tell you how many times I've actually said the phrase, "it's really tricky for me to pace myself with other people," and thought there was something wrong with me for it. What I'm discovering is that I'm willing to be a true leader, one who chooses a life that works for me regardless of who comes along and regardless of who "believes in me." It's not the character defect I was told it was.
I've been accused of being "non-traditional." I've been envied for being "non-traditional." I've been made fun of for being "non-traditional." I've been made a hero for being "non-traditional." And I've been made a villain for being "non-traditional."
Whatever. I'm just me. Doing things backwards.
What do you do or know that you've been feeling terrible about or hiding? Just for today, would you entertain the idea that this might be a treasure to unearth? I triple dog dare ya!
Lit and Comp teacher gone rogue, disguised now as a Living and Relationship Coach, Body Worker, and Access Consciousness Facilitator, I still sneak off to write because, well, it makes me come alive and it's one of the joyful ways I create the future.